just trying to express myself in a form of writing… or typing


Today, a lot of crappy things happened, ever since I had that conversation with my friend last night I’ve been caught into deep thinking about what I should do, what I did and what I should’ve done. During these days I do a lot of things and expect things that would happen as a result, but earlier I just failed to get the result. I’ve heard the gospel reading today and was puzzled what it meant, now I’m thinking, was all that was written in the “gospel for the day” really planned on what would happen in the future or was it just plainly coincidental? Whichever it is, I believe we’ve been trying hard to relate that “bible verse” with our current situation. Anyways, I’ve also watch the “How I Met Your Mother” earlier and I swore I could relate with that episode (episode 10 of season 7), I guess this is the universe’s way of telling me “Stop making things complicated, grow some balls and just start asking her out”. I really don’t know what should I do now but I hope I make the right decision.


The Art of Discernment

During the past years, months and days in serving God in the community, “discernment” is the most abused term used. It is used almost every decision made by so called ‘elders’ may it be choosing the next leader they are eying, choosing between two major decisions, or even the which topic or activity would be used in a specific event. Young leaders within the community are even advised to discern in choosing their romantic partner. But what is it really with discernment?? What does it mean and what is its essence?

according to Merriam-Webster:


1: the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what isobscure : skill in discerning

2: an act of perceiving or discerning something

according to Wikipedia:

Discernment is a term used to describe the activity of determining the value of a certain subject or event.

“Discernment” is also a term used in Christian tradition to describe the process of discerning God’s will for one’s life. In large part, it describes the interior search for an answer to the question of one’s vocation, namely, determining whether or not God is calling one to the married life, single life, religious life; ordained ministry or priesthood (Roman Catholic or Anglican/Episcopal) or any other ministerial calling by virtue of Baptism. The concept is not limited to ordination or vowed life.

Last month I was given an opportunity to be a in a vocation seminar with Jesuits, thinking I could know or realize the ‘calling’ I’m given or know which vocation would I belong. After the seminar all the things I was expecting to realize wasn’t directly answered. Still I was able to learn a lot of things. Discernment was the answer to the question I was asking. “Discern for your calling”. I learned that discernment not just simply praying for a sign or a voice that would be heard in the head answering you question, but discernment is where you would be given two options and discernment is choosing which option would give you long lasting happiness and content.

So basically discernment isn’t something that supernatural, God, in our discernment isn’t someone who would give us answers through voices in our heads or through signs just like in the old testament but instead give us wisdom whether our decision would give us long-lasting happiness or just short time.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? (via drexbulda)

We all make mistakes, that is a process of living of life. But how many times do we need to make the same mistake? We learn from our mistake, and upon learning discovery of life would be the result of it. It is impossible to live a life without a mistake, this is also a process wherein we learn more about ourselves. We can only learn from our mistake after we admit we've made it. Blaming others would only distance ourselves from learning possible … Read More

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